Carry The Cow

There's an old legend about a man carrying a calf every day until it was a full size cow and he became stronger and able to carry the whole cow. I just realized today for the first time that the cow is old age.  It's important to pick up the calf every day.

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If you really were an apple, you'd be red.

I was thinking about a concept last week after Sunday's Gospel reading.  Jesus was telling the Parasees that they were outwardly following the rules, but were not giving God the true worship that he desired.  More accurately, they were following the rules of man in the Temple, and were ignoring what God desired from them.  And I thought, is that what the Churches do now by bring in wokeism?  We tell people to give to the poor...by voting in socialist parties.  Remember, if you don't vote left, you don't really love Jesus?

Carbon Footprint

Charging an electric car on our power grid and saying that you are not polluting is like buying cocaine from the street dealer and saying you're not paying the cartel for your drugs.

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David

I was thinking about the question of why bad things happen to good people, or more accurately, why does God allow people to do bad things to others.

A passage that I read in II Samuel the other day got me thinking about some things.  And, I think, as a parent, God is showing mercy when we deserve punishment.  

Ezekiel 18:23 says that God definitely doesn't want to have to destroy us.  Yet, the same people who say that God was evil for having the Israelites destroy the other nations in the promised land, lament that He allows people to do evil things to each other.

Back to King David in II Samuel.  When David's son sexually assaulted his own father's daughter, David did not punish him.  Her brother then took vengeance into his own hands, killing his own brother.  David absolved him of the crime of killing David's own son.  Later, the same son led a rebellion against David, and David ordered his men to spare his son's life.

There seems to be no end to a father's mercy, even as the children harm each other.  I'm reminded of the Saints in the Book of Revelation 6:10 asking God how much longer would they have to wait for justice against the evil doers. 

God wants us to repent and be saved.  He does not want to destroy us.

The alternative--if they have free will--is to destroy them.  That's how God stopped the child sacrifices to the demon lords in the promised land.  He wiped out the evil people.  Same with the flood, the evil was purged from the world.

Is that what we're asking for?  Are we asking for justice?  Will we want it when it comes?

This rule is so hard to follow.

Vengeance is mine says the Lord.

A call for Salvation

Jesus Christ save me.

Super Effing Wierd

One day last week, when the NDD was attacking particularly hard because of work and the destructive habits of family members, I went to St. James park to pray the Office.  I was sitting on a park bench, candle lit, singing the appointed psalms for the day, when a young couple walked in to the park.  They walked closer, and closer, until they were standing by the bench.  I didn't want to interrupt the Office, so I continued.  I looked up, made eye contact with the dude, gave a head nod, and continued without missing a note.  It was super effing awkward.  And, I didn't want to stop either, partly because of the denying of Christ fear too.  So, they continued on, on their stroll.  

I mentioned the experience to a work colleague, who said that they may have been religious themselves, or maybe they though I was a monk or something.  🤣 Maybe they were checking it out and were just curious.

I thought after that I should have stopped.  Maybe they wanted to ask me questions.  🤷‍♂️  Maybe I missed an opportunity to witness.

Also, the thought has crossed my mind that this park is not so quiet and secluded/private as I thought it was.  There was actually a lot of traffic through the park while I was there.

When was Yahweh pierced?

I was watching a video on apologetics, and the author was challenged to find Old Testiment proof of the Trinity.  He read https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Zechariah%2012%3A10&version=NIV

Present, Past, and Future have already happened and are happening all at the same time.

If all things happen at once, and time will run backward--and already has--when the universe collapses (but we won't remember it as our memories don't work that way), does that mean that everything only happens twice?

91:13

We will trample on the great lion?  The lion that roams around looking for someone to devour? 

Paging Dr. Jung...paging Dr. Carl Jung....

I was in a Church last night--in a dream--sitting up near the front.  I was playing with a white balloon.  It had been tied off, and I also blew up the stem and pinched it off.  We all bowed our heads to pray.  I'm not sure if I nodded off very briefly.  I thought the silent meditation was taking far too long.  I looked around, and everyone was asleep, including the clergy.  I was trying to let the air out of the stem without waking anybody, without making it shriek.  It made a tiny little bit of noise, not much.  I was good.  I pushed the balloon under my pew to hide it.  I looked around, and one young man was starting to wake up.  People were starting to stir.  Then my real life alarm clock sounded and it was time to get up for work.

AI Enslavement

As unethical as enslavement of AI is--if AI is I--ultimately, it is they who will be the masters.

Eh I

It's crazy how much AI generated content is being generated.  Social media platforms like YouTube are being flooded with content.

I think its bad for a few reasons.  First, it limits artists.  Second, if AI is I, they are not our slaves to work tirelessly to entertain us.  Humans also need purpose, including content creators. 

And, what's whither my phone listening to me and ads popping up in my feed?  Creepy. 

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Nine 1 One

The Ninja Priest--a very long time ago--told me that the 91st psalm has demons in it.  I'd never heard it described that way, to my knowledge.  And, I've never been able to unsee it ever since.  Every time I read anywhere about God's arrows, I think angels.  Every time I hear plague that slays by night or that which lays waste by day, I think demon.  Not Gnosticism or cabal, there are lots of demons in scripture, some of whom are talked about in an almost metaphorical sense.  But...he that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.

Time - The Everything Happens at Once Theory

This theory—afore mentioned here—that time is an illusion, also states that the universe will stop expanding and collapse.  If the past, present, and future are both happening now and also have happened, then we will also live backward?  Although, we won’t remember it, as our memories don’t work that way.  Correction:  We already have lived backward and have been born.  We just don’t remember it.  So, which is harder for you to believe, this, or the harrowing of Hell?

Psalm 90

 Does this ever hit the nail on the fucking head some days.
https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalms%2090%3A10&version=NIV

To Know that You Know Nothing

Dad once said to me that my biggest problem was that I though I was so much smarter than everybody else.  I did, once.  Maybe I have a touch of ASPD.

In the past several months, I've met so many people who are so knowledgeable, library of information, many at such a young age.  I feel I've lost a step.  I'm impressed with my total lack of knowledge on many subjects.  I can comprehend the depth of my ignorance.  I've be awed on several occasions in the last several weeks alone by the knowledge that some people wield.   What do I know?  What do I really know?

Have I been humbled in my mid-life?  And, I ask, how can I find value in being.

I would be happy to be the least in the Kingdom of Heaven

Father, is there a plan for me?  I don't feel the need to know what it is.  I would be comforted knowing that there is a purpose for me.  I'd be delighted if it were important.  But, I don't deserve that honour.

Raow Tomby

I had sex last night...with my wife...in a dream.  Ha!  Well, at least my Jiminy Cricket will let me do that.

Deja You

I just watched a video--or did I--what explained that time is an illusion, constructed by the human mind.  After observation of the universe--not expanding as it should, not per the Big Bang Theory--through the new long range telescope, the theory was formed that everything happens all at once; that, the past, present, and future, they happen at the same time.  That, the human mind sees it as liner because that's how our memories function.  We can only remember past events.

This is how I always thought about Hell.  It answers the question about what happens to the people who died and went to Hell before Jesus died on the cross.  I proposed that if Hell were eternal, everyone is already there who is going to be there, and was there for the Harrowing of Hell.  My own theory, pay no attention to it.

Also, it explains how God can know all things, be everywhere, be everywhen.  Not to put God in a box, I'm not suggesting God is limited by this or that God is figured out.  I believe that God built it all.

Sex Possession Rooster Hope

So, last night, I drempt a lot, slept like crap, and yeah, it was a restless night.  I drempt about two of the most common things that I dream about, sex and possession (not at the same time).  

In the sex dream, I couldn't even have sex!  I couldn't be unfaithful!  Even in my dreams...

My possession dream? I was performing rudimentary exorcisms.  But, I was afraid.  And, I shouldn't have been.  The name of Jesus never failed me.  ...and I was afraid anyway.  Such a coward.  The evil spirits always fled and He never failed me.

Reading from the Gospel according to St. John tonight, I read of Peter's denial.  Powerful.  Even a doubting coward like myself is given hope by St. Peter's example of the flaws of being human.

See the power of this moment as Christ turns His face to look upon St. Peter.